Question:
What is there to LOVE and lose myself in other than writing, which is ultimately an extension of myself and my interpretations - my sometimes
narcissistic, self absorbed, incomplete absorption of the world?
Answer -
So here’s what I ultimately DIDN’T want the answer to be: People (collectively) or “ a person.”
Alternatives: The city lights. Coffee. Books. Infinite, intangible lovely things. The skyline at night.
But none of those things have souls, as much as I’d like to imagine they do. And I can only pluck out so much raw material out of my own and examine those sparkly guts under a blurry, compromised microscope.
What do I see? I sometimes see a loving, kind, supportive friend. A hard worker. A woman who loses control of her giggles at unfortunate times. Other times I see a woman lost in fantasy - “what if I did, what if he had, what if I said…” - that is where bitterness grows, resentment and anger take over, and she waltzes around like a hateful little marionette.
Over nothing.
Vitamins for thought.
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